Barbara Schaer

I wasn't ready to let you go.

I wasn't ready to let you go.
Even though I'm told that it was your time.
I can't get that through my mind.
I wasn't ready to let you go.
It wasn't meant to be this way.
I thought we would have more time
I reach out and take you by the hand
and ask Mom are you okay?
You didn't answer as you started to slip away.
The Morning was long as you waved your last good-by
One last battle you could not fight,
I knew that soon you would be gone,
I clasped your hand so cold in mine,
Soon we would be out of time,
To stay with me you fought so hard,
Did I do something wrong, or could I have done some things better.
Did I break any promises that I could not keep?
It Only took a few hours for your life to end and finally be pain free.
And It took a few seconds for a life time of pain and sorrow to begin for me.
I miss you more than these words could ever say
The pain in my heart is from one unimaginable day
After I cried all that I could; my eyes still shed countless more tears
And when I try to sleep, I have nightmares of ten-thousand fears
I walk in footsteps on an unsure path
My load feels so heavy I am not sure I will last.
Finding relief in knowing I will see you again someday soon
Remembering all you and dad taught me as my soul I will continue to groom
You are now in heaven taking care of the Lord's many gardens.
The beauty of each flower and rose will be a reminder of
The day when Heaven's gates open to receive me
and to see you and Dad's smiling face, as we are reunited once again
The way it is suppose to be.
Rest In Peace Mom I Love you very Much.
Your Loving Son Bill
2014